Mona Lisa Smile...

'Why is she smiling?

Is she happy?

Well she looks happy so what does it matter.

I cry each time i watch it. And I don't even know why.

Someone who refuses to conform is hard to find. Yet we all want to say that we are non-conformists. We all want to pretend that we live by our own rules...

Trying to be different is almost like fashion. Everyone wants to do it. Nobody wants to be stereotyped into an image. But you see its impossible to avoid.

I am not different. I think, see, feel, behave in the same manner as a lot of other people do. I look up to a lot of things and I try to copy them. I day dream and I paint castles in the air. I want to sound indifferent even when I am not. I pretend to care even when I don't. I judge. I follow. I give up. I pretend to be strong. I crave attention. I cry when I don't get it.

So why bother proving otherwise. At least I am truthful. At least I am not a hypocrite.

She is smiling because she is aware. She is smiling to mock the world. She is smiling at her own misery...or maybe of others. She is not smiling to please others any more. Just herself...