Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Lilies always remind me of my boss. He scolded his wife a little for something very silly on the phone one day when we drove back from a meeting. The minute his call ended he called the flower seller near her office and asked him to deliver a bunch of beautiful white lilies to her. Just because he wanted to better her mood. He is a gem of a person. A stubborn boss and quite unreasonable at times but a brilliant human being.
She had a bad day at work today. I waited for about an hour reading my very gripping detective novel before she came. She arrived, dressed in her 'eccentric' style, kept her bag on the chair, rid herself of the jacket and took the seat in front of me. The world then became suddenly bright. For the both of us.
I was lying in the basement room with the smell of incense that just made sense. Hypnotised and liberated I just heard a voice and some laughter and also felt a little something brush against my back. I knew in my subconscious mind also that I will always be grateful to her for giving me my safe haven. She brought me back into the room and switched on the lights. She said that my phone had been buzzing for a while. I checked. It was You. Waiting outside. I ran bare feet and found You right there. I hugged You and You held me close like I had never left your arms. As always I saw the magical twinkle in your eye.
That song just does not leave my mind. I keep humming it even when I am not. I keep feeling it even when I don't.
Why would she say things about me and my loved ones? I have no clue. I don't even care too much about it. I am weird in my pretty way and so it my life and I love it because it is so.
A lot of hilly terrain acoustics cause the sounds of nearby farmhouse parties to travel all the way to my room. I remember that they used to be an entertainment for me and my silence on the terrace of my old house. So many memories of the quiet times that I hold so close to my heart are brought alive by these drifting DJ tunes.
He was drunk and it was the middle of the path. He took my hand and forced me to shake a leg with him. I was a little tipsy myself so I humoured his offer and danced. Little did I know that dancing on the road is infectious. We ended up grooving to the loud music for a long long time. He waited at my window for an hour after I had slept. He never said he did.
You make Delhi winters just the best season of all times. In fact You make all the seasons more beautiful than they ever were. Your touch sill tingles and sends a warmth running across my entire body.
"Just come home. I will take you out for lunch. I can come and pick you up if you want."
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Another long Gap is it?
Gaps are meant to be. In fact gaps are good. It is good we give each other space Blogging world. It is very good indeed.
So since it has been a while, I shall Slur!
And not just any Slur, I shall slur left, right and well just about that much.
It is beyond my comprehension at times how this excitement just ceases to end. And then every new day is more and more about new things. It is like the world is Opening up to me, minute by minute. Some days are bright sunshine with light in my eyes. Others are foggy evenings with fragrant fetishes. And many many more are rainy afternoons, with brightly shining moons.
I realise now that it hasn't been in my aptitude to be low, not in my consciousness to be slow. I might move around with ease and not clean my room ever. But what I can do is just move the hearts and souls of a million energies that form my being.
The colour Red just makes me so immensely happy. And Orange and Purple and Blue.
You know how we say that we disagree. Well I do too. With you almost every second. You are good you know and there is no need for you to be constantly binding yourself around people who are better defined by unsaid names.
The best part about this is, that it isn't.
So many stirring conversations and so many tingling encounters and yet You make me the happiest and the most grateful person on earth.
Like i said, it is a Slur people!
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
I imagined it to be a time of luxury when I would be sipping a Mojito, waiting for my spa appointment and then a dinner date with the one I love.
Never did I imagine that it would be a Hospital Lounge and I would be waiting for the morning to see the One that I love and to hear about his improving health.
I owe my being to him. He forms the strong roots to one of the most magnificent tree I have ever known. He is the power behind all our pursuits, the guiding light of all our hearts.
Every second of the past three days has been nothing short of an adventure beyond explanation. Highs and Lows have flooded us with their mightiest blows.The emotional roller coaster was a relief to get off from.
The best part is that the ride ended with a high that I am grateful for.
For those who do not believe in God, or a superior power, I know it is futile to even make you understand the importance of blessings, the power of gratitude. But that will not stop me from telling the world about the power of this Universe. I have felt it more and more every second of my realization and even more in the past three days.
My gratitude is infinite.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Friday, September 21, 2012
Just close your eyes. Make a wish. And it will come true.
Every particle on this earth is a miracle. The more we realize it, the more wonderful it will be. We refuse to cherish what we have. We close our minds and take things for granted. Why is that so easy??
After all, we too are a creation of this most magnificent universe.
Then why do we stop believing that? Why do we while away our time trying to please people when all we need to do is be pleased ourselves.
Why do we whine over silly matters when we just need to blink our eyes and absorb a whole new light that awaits us.
It is really that simple.
Give it a try once.
I have been doing it. Being grateful is all that it takes.
How can you forget that your mother kept you in her belly for 9 months, underwent severe pain and discomfort to give you life? How can you ever be mean and horrible to her. Even if she does not understand you, did you ever look into your own heart and wonder if it is really you who needed to open your eyes?
How can you not love your father for every spec of comfort that he has given you in your life. Made you who you are today. If it wasn't for him, you would be absolutely incomplete.
How can you not be absolutely amazed by the beauties of nature, the wind, water, trees, sunshine? How?
It is so wonderful that I cannot put it in words for you.
Just stop being such a dramatic fool and stop making a fuss out of every little problem. Because beyond that problem is a world waiting to be explored.
Just make these trivial issues go away...
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
That is great except that it leaves the firing guns pointing at me. I hate hate and I mean HATE my relatives when they conveniently assume that I will get married for their amusement. Hello? Give me a break maybe?
But But But...
The fun part is that my house is THE SHADI HOUSE** and that makes it bubbling with activity everyday. Cards and more cards. Gift wrapping. Sangeet preps. Clothes that my aunt buys every week. So maaaany colours! Simply wow wow wow!
Mom is out of town and when she comes back it will be a total blast. My mum actually writes all the Folk songs that are sung in a typical Bundelkhandi wedding (We are from Bundelkhand and google it if you don't know what that means!!) and she totally rocks at it. I love them. Love Love Love creating them with her, love singing them with her, love dancing to them.
Oh such awesomeness!
So basically now we need amazing clothes for the weddings (one in October and the other in December). I am pretty much clueless when it comes down to what I should wear. I know Sari is my last resort but I want to do something different this time.
And matching Earrings....
I shall buy new heels.
They will be Gold in all probability.
Maybe that will help me get rid of my annoying triple word syndrome!
Maybe Maybe Maybe!
*The title is inspired by a dialogue from the movie 'Aisha'.
** The official house from where the wedding preparations will be carried out. The actual wedding is in Jaipur. Sigh.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
It always has but what is different now is that I am aware of it.
So here we go. Being wishful and asking for the things we love.
In my Dream Diary (Unexpected alliteration), I am just asking and asking and asking for more. And you know what the best part is. It is all going to come true.
So hold your breath Best Fraand because we are going to get that amazing performing arts studio.
Superwoman, the deal about 2015 is sooooo happening and nothing can stop us.
And all the amazing fresh scents of everything around is slowly coming alive.
Like Soul Sis very aptly says, "Not immediately, but most definitely"
With all my heart and soul.
The Magic words. My Magic spell.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
So amazing how this world was made
I wonder if God is a woman
The gift of life astounds me till this day
I give it up for the woman
She's the constant wind that fills my sail
Oh that woman
With her smile and her style
She'll protect you like a child
That's a woman
She'll put a smile upon your face
And take you to that higher place
So don't you underestimate
The strength of a woman
The strength of a woman
Thursday, June 28, 2012
What is this innate human tendency to crave for the forbidden, to find it irresistible. When you tell a child that ice cream is off limits, ice cream is all that the child wants. Why are we such rebels by nature?
Moreover who decides what is to be had and what is not to be had? The moral code of conduct has been fed into our brains from our birth and we just have to abide. Because arguably it is 'the right thing to do'.
Cravings like these are all around us. Multiple examples in our faces all the time. The concept of Reverse Psychology has born out of this human tragic flaw. You see it in children, adolescents, teenagers, youth, the middle age, older generation. It does not spare anyone! This is one of those continuities, that collectively groups us as a race.
What is most surprising is how we get so easily lured by that which is prohibited. Is it a sense of achievement that tags us as a true resister of the societal norms? Or is it just a curiousness to find out the consequences?
What is it?
Random thoughts always have some base, some connection to an existing phenomenon. I am sure of that.
I just felt something.
Every time you look at me, I get jitters. Still.
Is that normal behavior? Or is it my Romance vicariously living through my hormones?
It could just be me.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
It is the lack of inspiration that causes mind blocks like these.
Come on! How is one supposed to get inspired by geometrical shapes and fixated minds? That is what I see all day long in my office.
I need some sort of an emotional drive for me to be able to write. It could be the wind messing my hair and throwing dirt all over my face. It could be the rain pattering on the roof, and chilling my spine. It could be the sun shine warming my body against a cool breeze. It could be a child laughing. It could be my grandfather's palm with the lines that talk about the work of his years. Or my grandmother's forehead with the wisdom she has earned.
Wow I just realised that I have the commonest, most cliched writer's dilemma. the dilemma of finding an Inspiration. Emotions usually drive me. Well, mostly.
But with this white noise buzzing in my ears and blank space staring back at my eyes?...
I am not sad. No that is not what I feel. That would mean some form of emotion. This is just a blank blank space where words are hard to form and thoughts refuse to take birth!
And surprisingly, I smile.
True to my belief, human mind is weird. And so are human sensibilities.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
But well it is better to make lists and vent this anger rather than screaming your guts out at people (an act that some of them very much deserve).
So here is what causes *ahem* 'corporate slaving'. I base these points completely on the little and meager (and therefore probably inadequate) experience.
So here goes...
Honestly, all that noise is too much pollution.
I said 'Avant-Garde' and I got eyes. Blank stares. People did not KNOW what it meant!
Worst? People who do know (like me) are outsiders to their irritating and stupid jokes. I thank god in a way but I hate group-ism. Always have.
5. Did I mention stepping on others?? Well that also is 'healthy' competition. Oh such bliss!
It is actually quite hilarious to witness this preposterous procrastination.
Sounds fun no?
I hear laughter ringing in my ears each time I try to listen. My own probably. Maybe I am laughing because these stupid issues bother me. When actually they are quite mundane.
Monday, June 18, 2012
I would rather be doing any of these (in fact all of these, one after the other) over what I am doing right now!
Oh God bless that amazing Bed in front of that flat screen Television with that Air-conditioner. I would love to drop this all and just go and sleep. And watch TV. And sleep while watching TV. And watch TV while I sleep. I am sure you get the idea.
2. Coffee with Superwoman:
Would just love to make her bunk her office and sit in Def Col Barista or Saket CCD or City Walk Costa, or GK Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. And then we shall dissect and defame all the Panju's her mom has found for her and a bigger Panju who just refuses to budge!
3. Shopping with Sister:
Oh I cannot remember the number of days we have been trying to buy that one piece of super important item that can only be bought together. I don't even mind her constant bickering if we could just go to the mall and shop. Maybe buy a book or two afterwards for her. :)
4. Spa with Froggy:
Oh that amazing free coupon that we have for Body Polishing that is just waiting for us to use it and pamper ourselves. After that we can go back to her place, have a photo session and we are sorted! Also check out all those awesome clothes that she has bought. *hug*
5. Big Chill with Pugsie:
Catch up on OH SO MUCH with my awesome adorable and now crazy for Pilates friend. You know! Be a little us and be super talkative, detailing every trivial happening of our lives just because we want to!
6. Being with Best Fraand:
Be with her and simply go with the flow. Never planning and always having an awesome time. We could go to the gym together and maybe cook something healthy. Or we could go out and blow all our money on absolutely fattening stuff that we can justify with ease. Talk about the multiple things we need to be writing about and then finally even writing them down.
7. Gossip with Ma:
Just random things that need to be talked about. Making songs for the upcoming weddings. Story-telling and gossips. And all that while I do some random chore she wants me to do. I love my Mom. She is the best.
8. Getting a Pedicure:
Just relax and sleep in that comfortable chair while my feet are pampered and beautified.
9: Reading a Book:
The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. In my bed. With some diet chips and Nimbu Paani!
10. Movie with Capricorn Boy <3 :
Our new found obsession is movies. We want to watch them all! Some popcorn. Some Nachos. Holding hands. And discussing them in super great detail afterwards. Just Perfect.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
And It is Thursday again. Most of us are sitting at our desks, trying to wind up work faster in the hope of enjoying the weekend. Can you see the weekend yet? can u?? caaan uu?? maybe not. It has been so long that we've been at this desk. Doesnt the bum hurt? I guess we've been too busy to pay attention to poor butt.
Life is so goddamn fast now. It is not nice. The busiest time in school used to be Rupak Time, or the annual day. Thats the busiest it got. And it was happy busy. This? is oh my god let me out wala busy. Not a very great feeling. Either it's the office, or it’s the road. Home is like a paying guest accommodation.
I really hope and pray for all the sanity that there is light at the end of this tunnel. Else. ! About the other things in life, our Countdown is about to finish. Pretty fast it went ! It was only 30 some days ago, and now suddenly its 9. To tell you the truth, now that the date of making my decisions is coming closer, DANCER!! I AM PETRIFIED!! I can't believe the rose tinted dream is ending now, and I will have to finally go through the ordeal of sitting and taking stock of things.
Dancer, let's go shopping some day. I miss our trips to Citywalk, and the Kathi rolls. I really do miss the adrak wali chai. And though I apparently stay at your place twice a week, i stil havnt had the chance to sit and chill in your garden. These things matter to me. Your house, well of course it is A JUNGLE, but its more of an exotic retreat. Away from the Chandra Khandan ka kahar, away from the loud television and che che all the time. Peace is what I find at your place. And of course it has been so so freaking long that we played wands and swords!! Last time, your sister was so not in the mood for it and hence had ended up buying furniture.
Sigh. At a lot of things in life.
Are dancer, tum shaadi kar lo! honestly.. accha idea nahi hai?
PS: You are crazy!